I left the USMC in 71 because I wanted to go to heaven. The Marines taught me a lot and I had a good future. But, I had been raised in the church and it seemed to me that most church goers were just playing at Christianity. The only people who seemed to have the kind of dedication I knew was necessary were preachers. So, if that was what it took, then I would become a preacher.
In Richmond, where I occasionally rode a train in from Quantico, the preacher and his wife (Don and Neva) told me I would never be happy till I quit running from God and later in Hawaii, Ben Shropshire told me about Florida College where all good things (read that, Dene) began.
On the day I was discharged, I quit drinking and smoking and began the process of quitting cussing. 53 years later, I am still working on that process. Oh, you will never hear it, but in moments of anger or frustration those ugly words swell up in my head. Young people, be careful what you take in, you may never get rid of it. Have you ever reasoned through the timing of history that all those passages about putting to death our members on the earth, walk by the spirit not by the flesh, etc. are written to Christians of long standing?
As a probation officer, I sat across the desk from a young man who inquired, "Mr. Ward, I quit cocaine, you know I did for you test me every few days, and I quit marijuana and I have smoked it since I was 7, but I can't quit cigarettes." It was not easy for me. Studies now show that nicotine is more addictive than cocaine. I quit cold turkey because I wanted to go to heaven, I wanted to be a preacher and so I resisted every urge.
The harder addictions are the mental ones, hence the recurring problem with the cursing. I may go weeks, months and then in an unguarded moment it is back. How much worse pornography? Lusting? Pride? Greed?
It seems that actually little has changed. Most people who are members of the right church with the right worship and the right……are just playing. You can tell because they know more about sports than the Bible and just "do not have the talent to teach," but can recite the most trivial statistics of a player. They saw the latest movies or TV series full of all the filth in all those passages the Holy Spirit warned us to put to death, but can't find any interest in reading their Bibles between services. They say they want to go to heaven more than anything and make serious pledges, but little headway. Addicts, all.
You say it, but if you mean it, JUST QUIT! Quit now. If it comes back, Quit again. Don't resolve to do better, QUIT!
Then down marched the remnant of the noble;
the people of the LORD marched down for me against the mighty.
From Ephraim their root they marched down into the valley,
following you, Benjamin, with your kinsmen;
from Machir marched down the commanders,
and from Zebulun those who bear the lieutenant's staff;
the princes of Issachar came with Deborah,
and Issachar faithful to Barak;
into the valley they rushed at his heels.
Among the clans of Reuben
there were great searchings of heart.
Why did you sit still among the sheepfolds,
to hear the whistling for the flocks?
Among the clans of Reuben
there were great searchings of heart.
Gilead stayed beyond the Jordan;
and Dan, why did he stay with the ships?
Asher sat still at the coast of the sea,
staying by his landings.
Zebulun is a people who risked their lives to the death;
Naphtali, too, on the heights of the field. (Judges 5:13-18)
[Read this again and separate the mere churchgoers from the doers.]
Keith Ward